please behave well, the world isnt yours

"everything is gonna be alright". the sentences bubbling around mind. people already ignored the "things". people motivated with fantasy. how come i said like that. they want something but they dont give something. is not simple as a said right.
"hurt everyone by hurt them self". they curse people, but when it happen back to them they feel taken back.
"smile is the best medicine in the world" gorgeous/ beautiful smile is not mean happy moment or good news. it also defense in their phenomenological view. medical treatment sometimes cant give the lost soul a hope.

art is beautiful

people is a perfect nature in the world. so they are. i'm fine just watching my skills only. its happen so fast until i realize i'm a woman.
art is beautiful.

porridge

lucky for today, i'm the cooker.
proud to be myself.

unaccepted

i'm hurt, i'm loss, i'm crying, i'm unaccepted, i'm not exist, i'm fool, i'm emotional, i'm hated, i'm embarrassed,  i'm alone, i'm fake, i'm holding, i'm thinking, i'm chaotic, i'm confront, i'm rejected, i'm not right person, i'm humility, i'm lack, i'm shaking, i'm control, i'm stuck, i'm not speak, i'm pretending, i'm...i'm...i'm...i'm...

i cant said more because he judged me too much. i'm weak there. sorry friend tonight i'm full with emotion.

my tears i keep holding, i want to share but i'm afraid.

losing pride as human in the lab, i talking alone.

nafsu atau realiti

Pembelajaran terganggu sebentar atas permintaan yang sama dengan keinginan. pening kepala sebab nak fikir kesan dan akibat permintaan tersebut. keinginan melonjak mahu tunaikan namun realiti hakiki perkara tersebut masih dalam kawalan. desakan nafsu + pandangan teman-teman= memang tak keruan. 
macammana nak berdepan dengan permintaan nanti.
perasaan serba salah menyelubungi (baik juga aku, konon).